Take that!

Phew! This has been a stressful week!  Know what stress does to an emotional eater on a diet?  Sabotages them!  Makes me believe that eating lots of unhealthy things will make things better.  Makes me feel like stuffing down my feelings and emotions so that I don't have to experience the pain.
I made a big discovery this weekend....when I don't do that....the tears come out!  Let me explain.  My mom passed away suddenly in 1992..it was devastating to me and my family.  She was only sick for less than a week and gone.  It took me a long time to heal from that and I did not like the emotional state I was in all the time.  I guess I kind of made a decision not to ever let anything get to me that deeply again.  Although I've struggled with my weight my whole life...I have never been this overweight, and especially not for this long a period of time.
People...this is my humble opinion...take it for what it's worth, and know that the reason I'm writing it is mainly for my own benefit:  Just because we are Christians does not mean we don't have struggles and trials in our lives.  It also doesn't mean that we should stuff those feelings and emotions down and walk around like everything is okay and we are above all of it.
Thank GOD He walks with us through them...sometimes carries us.  But he MADE us and He knows we feel things deeply.
It actually scared me this weekend how many tears flowed and how much emotion came out.  Then I realized this morning, it's not comfortable, but it's needed in order to heal and not keep it all inside...where I feel like the only thing that will help it is to eat.
Thanks for listening and I pray someone else is helped by this post.  Let me know your thoughts.  And I covet your prayers. :)