I'm still at it over here!

11/19/13
It's been a while since I've had time to post!  I am still doing great on my plan to getting healthy.  I have not had the time to walk like I was at first, but I am working on that.
Since beginning my journey, I have lost 15 pounds.  I am finally beginning to feel a difference in my clothing.  Baby steps.
I made it through a very stressful situation without caving.  That's saying a lot, isn't it?  I felt emotions I haven't allowed myself to feel in some time.  That wasn't fun, but it is healing.
I am also now on vitamins from GNC.  I take L-Cartinine once a day, an Ultra Mega Women's Active Vitamin twice a day...and something called GRP6 that's to help with REM sleep (for fibromyalgia sufferers) and also helps with appetite control.  It's helping!
Would love for those that want to to post some suggestions on making it through the upcoming holidays safely.  I plan to make a salad in addition to the normal things I make and take to get togethers.  Funny to me how people will pile their plates high, but see salad and have to put some of it on their plate as well.  I think it helps them justify what else is on there. HAHA.
I am planning over the Black Friday shopping time to begin looking for a "special plate" for me.  I would like to use a smaller plate at dinnertime (I have already been doing this but it's a plastic Star Wars one....).  I would like to treat myself by finding something really beautiful.  Have also thought how neat it would be one day to design plates for dieters, ones that are "real portion size" not the portions we're so used to today in America.  I also would like to put on the plates sayings like "You Can Do This!"  And "Way to Go!"  Who wouldn't like to finish a salad or healthy meal and see that?
So ..... let the suggestions begin!  If you are having difficulty posting responses here, sign up for a Google account.  It only takes a second.  Blessings to everyone and a wonderful Thanksgiving to all!!!

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Phew! This has been a stressful week!  Know what stress does to an emotional eater on a diet?  Sabotages them!  Makes me believe that eating lots of unhealthy things will make things better.  Makes me feel like stuffing down my feelings and emotions so that I don't have to experience the pain.
I made a big discovery this weekend....when I don't do that....the tears come out!  Let me explain.  My mom passed away suddenly in 1992..it was devastating to me and my family.  She was only sick for less than a week and gone.  It took me a long time to heal from that and I did not like the emotional state I was in all the time.  I guess I kind of made a decision not to ever let anything get to me that deeply again.  Although I've struggled with my weight my whole life...I have never been this overweight, and especially not for this long a period of time.
People...this is my humble opinion...take it for what it's worth, and know that the reason I'm writing it is mainly for my own benefit:  Just because we are Christians does not mean we don't have struggles and trials in our lives.  It also doesn't mean that we should stuff those feelings and emotions down and walk around like everything is okay and we are above all of it.
Thank GOD He walks with us through them...sometimes carries us.  But he MADE us and He knows we feel things deeply.
It actually scared me this weekend how many tears flowed and how much emotion came out.  Then I realized this morning, it's not comfortable, but it's needed in order to heal and not keep it all inside...where I feel like the only thing that will help it is to eat.
Thanks for listening and I pray someone else is helped by this post.  Let me know your thoughts.  And I covet your prayers. :)